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Kazumasa Uchio

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26 notes 4 days ago


It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back she was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.


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2 tablespoons almond butter
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 tablespoon maple syrup or honey
1/4 cup canned pumpkin, not pumpkin pie filling
1/3 cup vanilla almond milk, I used Silk
1/2 cup old fashioned oats
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice
Pinch of salt
2 tablespoons dark or milk chocolate chips (dark is healthier)
Optional: 1 tablespoon vanilla protein powder

  1. In a small bowl, combine the almond butter, vanilla extract, and honey or maple syrup. Microwave for 10 seconds and then stir until well combined.
  2. Add in the pumpkin, milk, and oats.
  3. Stir well and make sure the almond butter is mashed in thoroughly.
  4. Add in the cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice, and salt. (Add in protein if desired) Again stir well and then mix in the chocolate chips.
  5. Transfer the mixture into a small jar or sealed container.
  6. Place in the fridge for at least an hour or until oats are completely softened (preferably overnight)
  7. Warm them up in morning or eat them cold straight out the fridge garnished with a few extra chocolate chips if desired.

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181 notes 1 week ago


it’s such a strange feeling to care for someone you’ve never met.
to find comfort in words you can’t hear.
to feel butterflies from a face you’ve never seen.
to hear your heart beating faster for a presence you’ve never felt.

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Beautiful landscapes :)

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Beautiful landscapes :)

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